A little about Depression

Hello. I haven't written for a few days. Sorry about that. Depression is another very, very common side affect of Fibromyalgia. I think some depression comes from the loss of the independance that I once knew. Maybe it's the constant pain that gets me down after a while. Oh I try and stay positve and when I am out and around people I generally do alright. It's the nights and days when I am by myself when I feel free to cry and cry. I am not even exactly sure why I am crying except that there is an intense loss in my life. I have always been a very independant person and it is difficult to give that up.

My doctor says that realistically I will never work again so that by itself is a loss. Once the depression takes hold though, it's tough to talk about. I tend to think that people don't want to hear me "whin" about my problems. I also don't want to push my friends away because I am not the cheerful person that most people, I think would prefer.

I take medication for depression, as well as other disorders. I think the meds help me not to sink so low into the depressive state that I will never come out of it again.

I am going away for 4 days to the doctor to update my precriptions and get checked out. I will see if I can do a blog day for one of the days that I will be gone. I leave the night of the 25th and come back the night of the 27th. I guess that is only 2 days.

Well it's late where I am. I just wanted to post in case someone was checking back to see a new update.

Twila :)